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One cell at a time

Today was a good day. I spent many hours in front of my laptop. I finally got 2 good hours, the rest was mediocre or simply wasted but I feel great… Two good hours… Few years ago I was able to pull out 16 a day, 6 days a week, but zero complains now. In …

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Living on the surface of my brain

I could finally shave today, the way I always liked it, very hot water, warm soap and brush, safety razor… I applied the soap, abundantly, let it work on my 3-day beard, then shaved once, washed my face, applied more soap and shaved a second time, then a third one. After 3 repetitions, my hard …

The very first step to fight back depression: Quality SLEEP

I was just asked what is, in my experience, the very first step to fight back depression. I have a very clear answer: QUALITY SLEEP. When you realized you are clinically depressed and you need to start taking some actions to fight back or you will really take your own life, the first you need …

FACE THE DEMONS OF YOUR IMAGINATION

Reality is the idea you have about reality… In other words, the only world that really exists is the one we create or re-create in our minds. We see things outside, then we put two and two together and then we form a working image of it in our minds. That image is the map …

Sunrise of the mind

Like every day, I got up at 6 am, struggled to find energy to brush my teeth and wash my face. Today I couldn’t shave, I looked at the dried brush and razor and just didn’t have the energy to do it. I went to the kitchen and poured some coffee my wife had already …

Basic RULES FOR LIFE

Yes, I have been deeply and clinically depressed during the last 2 years and now I start this blog to (among other things) vomit all the crap that bitters me inside, all the sadness, all the bile… Yes, I still think of taking my own life, though in those really terrible moments I think of …

First entry…

Today I am in a dark place, lost inside myself where nothing else can reach. I start this blog as a sort of message in a virtual or cosmic bottle to reach to other human beings that might also be in pain, alone, with a bleeding soul. I am 52, I put in my company …